i just want to smile when i think back to the youthful purity i once had.

"if 'i love you' was all i could ever say again, i could never say it enough to you!"--m.r.h

"when you find the right person, forever wont be long enough"--m.r.h

"i will hold you close to my heart,
and take you every where i go.
over the mountains and across the seas,
 in my heart you will always be."--m.r.h

its been a while but the update is on secondbest92785 

he had been watching her, watching her scanning over the shelfs of books and movies. she would pick one up, look at it long and then place it back. move to the next do the same and then return to the last. he took the oppurtunity to approach her and the sales lady behind the counter.
"is that the one you wish to buy?"
she jumped startled, "uhm yes. well i do wish to have it, but i do not need it." she placed it back down and smiled up at the sales lady.
"well then i think you shall have it! bag it for her at once." he smiled at the sales lady and then at her. he reached for his wallet and removed a credit card.
"oh no, please don't, you don't need to do that."
"but i insist!" and before she could protest any more the book was charged and bagged. the sales lady handed to bag over to him and he attempted to hand it to her.
"i couldn't accept that from you."
"why not, because we are not aquanted? the become aquanted with me." he flashed her another smile and chuckled as he handed her the bag.
"thank you sir." she took the bag, and smiled at him. "but i have to ask, are you trying to buy my affections?"
"well actually i'm trying to buy your time, but if your affections come along with it that will only be a bonus! i only wish to know you, you seem to be someone worth knowing. so please all i ask is a cup of coffee and even that i will treat you. because i have no doubt you only wish to have a cup, but do not need it."
she laughed at his jest and could not resist accepting it. they spent most of the afternoon at a table in a coffee shop off of a back street. storms passed over and the rain fell off and on. she was more then happy to give him as much time as he wished and so they spent many afternoons sitting at that same coffee table, talking away the day.

since you've been gone,

the minutes have turned to hours,

the hours have fallen into days,

the days collect into weeks,

six months have passed me now.

 

i get through most days just looking at your face,

i've got pictures, but not the ones from the best days.

i pass my time not thinking of the way you left us here.

 

if i never hear your name again,

i'll be just fine.

if i only live off the memories,

i just might survevy.

but every time i think i hear your voice

i just want to die.

 

in the hush of a moment i can feel your touch,

sometimes i regret not telling you enough.

not telling you how much i love you.

 

some times the bad days just creep up,

they bring back all the lose i felt when i last held your hand.

since you've been gone i find it hard to look at your face,

since you been gone your chair is just an empty space.

 

i've counted the minuts,

lost track of the days.

the weeks fill my calender

as the months turn to haze.

all i have left now is to count the years,

to count the missed moments that you'll never be in.

 

the weddings you'll miss,

the births and first kisses.

graduations spent with an extra ticket, cause you wont be there.

children leaving the nest, going off on their own.

 

since you've been gone,

all i count is the moments you will miss...